It's Done

School that is. Commencement was this evening and I walk at graduation tomorrow. I was waiting with some friends to walk into the BYUI Center and I wasn't feeling anything special, just tired of waiting around, but having fun being with my friends. As we walked out of the gym and made our way to our seats, the faculty had lined the corridors and clapped for us, and as soon as I walked through the doors, the music started playing and after i tripped into my friend going down the stairs I realized that this is it. This is what I have worked towards for the last four years.
For the last couple of days I've been focused on getting assignments turned in and packing I felt like I had so much stuff to do and no time to get it done. But for a moment As we were all filing in I had this accomplished feeling. I'm done. I mean, not entirely, I have to work towards student teaching now, but I have done everything I needed and passed everything to get to student teaching.
And it's starting to hit me that I won't see any of these people I have been around for last 4 years. (I could kinda care less about my roommates, except Tami) But all my friends I've made in my art classes that I learn from and grow with and goof around in the Spori with till all hours of the night. They're like my support base for art stuff. I go to them with questions and we critique each others' work, I'm not going to have that once I'm home. HUGE bummer. I haven't curled up into into a ball and started crying yet, but I'm sure it will happen once I'm home and without the art posse.
Anyway, I ramble about this all the time, leaving school and whatnot, only because this is a huge deal for me. It's not like highschool where after I graduated I didn't feel different or older...I feel different now. I feel older. I have more responsibility now to go out and be a better person. No more B.S.ing my way through stuff anymore.
And with these next few months before student teaching I can really focus on art and working on new ideas. I've got a big project I've already started, making block prints. It's easy enough, but it takes time and patience and I'm way excited to work on it for more than a few minutes here or there inbetween all the other stuff I need to do. I'll need to find a job, but a job doesn't give homework.
Well, NOW I've rambled long enough....and without pictures so it's even MORE boring. HaHa

I'll post pictures in a few days but, I'm pretty sure they'll look exactly like the ones in the two previous posts...I will say one thing, the stupid cap gives me a rash on my forehead. It's itchy and tight and makes my ears stick out...and when I look around at everyone else...everyone's scratching their head and fiddling with their hair around their ears. hahaha